† SJM-productions †

SJM-productions, 2006: What Is It Worth?

What is it Worth?
(written by Saskia Boree)

How's it possible that
We can miss someone so much?
While deep in the heart,
Won't still commit
It feels wrong, take away my bliss
'Cause I won't belong to this

CHORUS
I'm feeling that I'm not a branch
Of this old tree
I don't belong to something, and
Time should always healing me
I won't be a part of an aimless story
So, what is it worth?
What is it Worth?

How's it possible that
We can't take away the fear?
While deep in the heart,
Need some love
It feels wrong, one shot in the eye
Tells me, that It's all a lie
(chorus)

I'm not a branch
Of this old tree
Time should always healing me
How's it possible and
What is it worth?
What is it worth?
(chorus)

So what is it worth?
Is it worth?

Produced by SJM-productions, 2006

 

SJM-productions, 2006: Eyes Never Lie

Eyes Never Lie
(written by Saskia Boree)

I'm sorry for fucking up your world
And I'm sorry for being a stupid girl
I'm sorry for the person that I meant to be
I feel so sorry 'cause I want some privacy
But today frighten me and I'm affraid
I don't know what to do
And I don't know who I should believe

My eyes won't cry
My heart won't caught by a fence
Eyes can't caught, and here's the evidence
That eyes never lie,
Yeah, eyes never lie

I'm sorry that I'd turning on that wheel
And I'm sorry for the ways that I feel
I'm sorry that I should further with my life
But finally It's my live and life
And yesterday frighten me and I'm scared
I don't know if I could go on with you
And don't know in wich hate and grief

Our eyes won't cry
Our hearts won't caught by fences
Our eyes can't caught, where's all evidences?
That eyes never lie,
Eyes never lie

Nothing what I did was right
Nothing was really oke
Now my eyes are all over that line
But hey, I'm fine, yeah, I'm fine
What more could I say?

Our eyes won't cry.....

Produced by SJM-productions, 2006

 

SJM-productions, 2006: Running Away In Time

Running away in Time
(written by Saskia Boree)

I won't make the same mistakes
Like I did into my past
No I won't make, the same frays again
Before you know life's over
Throw not a life away, don't waste
So are my words, the words what make me feel big, but...

CHORUS
I'm running away,
I'm running away in time
I'm running from the shadows inside my head
Running away, running away
Not longer real, but faded
I'm running away in time
To a world that's mine
Running away in time

I won't make the same problems
Like I always could astray
No I won't make, the same shadowd again
Life's over to soon
I won't pull it all gone, what more could I say?
So are my words, the words what makes me feel big, but...
(chorus)

I don't even understand myself
So how could I understand each other?
But hey, I won't complain again
So I wouldn't longer bother
So are my words, the words what makes me feel big...
(chorus)

Saying how I feel, is so hard for me
So I'm running away, I'm running away in time

Produced by SJM-productions, 2006

 

SJM-productions, 2006: Part Of The Crowd

Part of the Crowd
(written by Saskia Boree)

I'd try so hard, to come into this small society
While nobody would see, the real personality
Behind this, behind the closed eyes in me
They can say, that it's my own responsibility
But the problem's so deep
This people already died
How could they ignore me,
While they hold me so tied?

And all I do is screaming again
I screaming now, it isn't all my fault
'Cause I won't be a part of the crowd
I only wanna be myself and proud
No, I'm not a part of the crowd

I'd try to find reasons, why should I fight?
Wheather I do, they keep on telling that I aint doing it right
If I do not exactly things that they only do the way
Should I scratch my nails, should I hurt them on a day?
But the problem's so deep, the people are already grey
'Cause they want so much delay

Screaming again, screaming now
It isn't all my fault
No I won't be a part of the crowd
I only wanna be myself
And yeah, I should be proud
So?
I'm not a part of the crowd

I won't be a part of the crowd
I'm not a part of the crowd...

Produced by SJM-productions, 2006

 

SJM-productions, 2006: Dead Fields

Dead Fields

(written by Saskia Boree)

 

Tell me.... what do I feel?

Is it jealousy?

Is it doomed reality?

How can I stand right on my feet?

Fighting a war in me that couldn't bleed

 

Surrounded by dark fields is all I see

Drowning by dead fields, they just killing me

All I wish there's a way out to escape

Who's the one, and hear my scream?

Surrounded by dead fields

 

Tell me... what do I feel?

Is it destiny?

Is it faded personality?

Who am I to tell?

How can I use the things that make me myself?

 

Surrounded by dark fields is all I see

Drowning by dead fields, they just killing me

Enter my door, welcome to this world...

 

I thought that I was strong

But I guess time should learn

Is it needfull to get someone for real on paper?

Is that really the thing that we should earn?

Leading an hopeless life inside of me

 

Surrounded by dark fields is all I see

Drowning by dead fields, they just killing me

How can you know what I really need?

Fighting the war in me that couldn't bleed

All I see are dead fields surrounding me

 

Surrounded by dark fields is all I see

Leading an hopeless life inside of me

Give me the insomnia that should make me feed

Fighting a war in me that couldn't bleed

Who am I to tell?

 

Stay fighting a war in me that couldn't bleed

Dead fields surrounding me

Enter my door, welcome to this world...

 

Produced by SJM-productions, 2006

 

SJM-productions, 2006: Useless (The Mask)

Useless (The Mask)

(written by Saskia Boree)

 

Laying for nothing on the intensive care

Playing with his life: truth or dare?

They told her he should never awake

But where does she go, and what's just fake?

If they're telling her he should always sleep

Dreaming his life away, without any breathe

Is here somebody who could share?

 

CHORUS

It's all so useless, it's all fake

Give her a sign, a way she could make

It's all so senseless

Surrounded by fences

But she never now,

What it should take

What should it take?

 

She's laying her faith aside

Distorted feelings, all that she hide

What is she feeling for him?

What's the thing that, makes her a little dim?

Leading a life like this, couldn't be fair

Is here anybody who could share?

(chorus)

 

Now... twenty years later

He died, but there's nothing changed

The mask on her face should never go away

In her eyes is everyone a stranger

She just need someone who cares

Is here someone who could share?

It's all so hopeless, useless...

(chorus)

 

She just need someone

Who could understand her

One person, who's takes the mask away

 

Produced by SJM-productions, 2006

< for my mother >

 

In lovin'memmory of my brother

* 4 February 1982           + 7 March 1988

 

SJM-productions, 2006: Phases

Phases

(written by Saskia Boree)

 

Hear soft crying of a child

On the other side of the door

Hear proudly talking, and we know

There's so much more

And when this newborn child grows up

He became an adult man

Hear him wisely speak, and we know

There begins new life again

 

CHORUS

It's all so hard to find

The last piece of our ways

And when we find some believe

We walk on the end of old days

We try to enter the next level

Enter next phase

 

Look how he is this moment

After the big line of girlfriends

He's certain, but feel his doubt

About asking his special one her hand

He's  so proud, he try so hard to believe

That he should marry the same year

He's also affraid to take decisions

And yeah, he's feeling a little fear

(chorus)

 

Hear soft crying of a child

On the other side of the door

Hear proudly talking and we know

This is all he asking for

Some luck, some pride

Some love and warmth inside

All we try to find the last piece of believe

If we walk on the end of old days

Finally we should enter the next phase

(chorus)

 

Enter next phase...

 

Produced by SJM-productions

                for

MH-productions, 2006

 

SJM-productions, 2006: Remember

Remember

(written by Saskia Boree)

 

Where we drive

Where we are

Grey skies surrounds threatfull faces

Where we are

Where we walk

Everywhere the same and dirty places

Let's go back again

 

CHORUS

Leave all troubles behind

Where's the culture, the culture to find

Let's go back to the peacefull past

Try to remember, remember , remember

How the paradise really was

Do you remember ..... now?

 

Where we walk

Where we are

Is the world long before infected

Where we are

Where we come

Crazed people, ghosts in their heads

Let's go and start again

(chorus)

 

Where we are, where we come

Remember remember

Where we drive, where we walk

Remember, remember

(chorus)

 

Produced by SJM-productions, 2006

 

This lyric is also written in the year 2003, but I thought that it's better to put this lyric in the year 2006, because  MH likes this lyric. That's why this lyric's late.

For MH-productions.

 

SJM-productions, 2006: Holeway

Holeway

(written by Saskia Boree)

 

There's fallin a star, wish I was wise

There's falling a veil, all over my eyes

And when my lashes touch my skin

Feel I my unforgiven sins within

Feeling the strength, some new sense

Feeling the warmth, kiss me intense

Should my will-power take away when I get older?

Should it just float all over my shoulder?

If I lose this faith

Should I lose more?

 

Gazing forward to the holes in my way

Gazing forward, there's nothing more to pray

The life I lived is over, I'd astray

This is the way I live, a sweet holeway

If I lose this faith

Should I lose more?

 

'Are you there God?

I think not, and if you are

I won't really talk to you

 

God you shouldn't earn to be adored

'Cause when good people die

The bad people stay alive and fly

How bad is that God? You aint better

You should earn like human being'

 

If I lose this faith, should I lose more?

The holes in my way, says enough

That's why I've nothing more to pray

This is the way I live, a sweet holeway

 

Gazing forward to the holes in my way

Gazing forward, there's nothing more to pray

Sweet holeway...

 

Produced by SJM-productions, 2006

 

SJM-productions, 2006: Scared To Death

Scared to Death

(written by Saskia Boree)

 

I hear a sound, that keeps me awake

I hear a voice, whispers over the lake

That we're wearing all a mask

We're all fake, and when we ask

Some respect, some transfer in each other

Won't nobody be the teaching mother

There's so much more forgotten..

 

CHORUS

Everybody's selfish, but

Nobody's feeling remembered

Everybody's selfish, but

We're all scared to death

There's so much more forgotten

But we won't see that

Everybody's selfish, yeah

Only nobody's remembered

They are scared to death

Scared to death

Nobody should be feeling forgotten

When there's selfish

 

I see things, clearly and bright

I feel thoughts, not always right

I smell evil round every door

Where should we finally fight for ?

There's so much more forgotten...

(chorus)

 

How can we do fake

How can we make

Each other so sad?

How can we do fake

How can we make

Each other so mad?

 

When everybody's selfish

Shouldn't nobody be feeling forgotten

When everybody's feeling dismissed

There's so much more forgotten

Everybody's so selfish

We shouldn't be feeling forgotten

(chorus)

 

We are all scared to Death

 

Produced by SJM-productions, 2006

 

SJM-productions, 2006: Purple Ink

Purple Ink

(written by Saskia Boree)

 

Times, I'd thought that I was possessed

A smile, a laugh

Sticked all into my head

Throw all colors around,

Give some happiness to me

Don't fake a face, and

There's nothing less you see

 

CHORUS

Like green trees and leaves around

Like red horizon, black ground

All colors of the rainbow's all we need

Like yellow roses in gardens grow

Like blue skies, and white snow

Like weary pens on paper feed

And purple ink on pages will bleed...

Should we feel a way

That purple ink can't describe...

 

Times, I'd thought I was born insane

A tear, a grief

Running all through the rain

Throw all colors around,

Wipe the curses all in me

Don't fake a heart and

There's nothing burst you see

(chorus)

 

The time should us learn

Time gives us what we earn

Should we feel a way

That purple ink can't describe...

(chorus)

 

Should we ever feel a way

That purple ink can't describe...

 

Produced by SJM-productions, 2006

 

SJM-productions, 2006: Poem From A Ghost

Poem from a Ghost

(written by Saskia Boree)

 

They are sick of the world

'Cause they've seen a lot of anger

They won't no more

Hate inside

I wish I'd never saw and did

It all into my life

There's no reason

Where all waiting to die

 

They've seen all things in this world

But that doesn't mean they can pull me away

There where a lot of things

So deep inside

I wish I'd saw and did

Those things in my life

There's no reason, where all waiting to die

Look who I am now, Who am I to fly?

 

They've seen a lot in the world

And now they stay forever on this place

No I won't be there again

So why I'm here again?

Once again....

 

There's no reason, no reason, no reason

There's no reason, where all waiting to die

Look who I am, who am I to fly?

(repeat)

 

They've seen a lot of the world

But they pull my pride away

There's no reason, where all waiting to die

Look who I am, should I ever fly?

 

Produced by SJM-productions, 2006

 

SJM-productions, 2006: Lightblind

Lightblind
(written by Saskia Boree)

Please I beg you, don't pressure me
'Cause one day we should it all know
Where we doing it all for
Why we some feelings ignore
I don't say that you did something wrong
But hastily is all I see
It scared me so much and
It make me that I won't it all anymore

CHORUS
How could we be so lightblind
Offcourse we can do a lot
If you only want to
You should come far enough
Sometimes it isn't easy to find
But we can still do a lot
If you only want to
You should come far enough
If you only want to
You should finally find some love
How could we do so lightblind?

No don't pressure me again
I won't know where I doing it all for
All those hastily action
Scared me a lot and
Makes me that I won't anymore....

The pain in my eyes
Makes me drown in those lies
But I should try to hold on
To hold on
(chorus)

Take the pressure from the swelling
Slow down the hastily words
How could we do so lightblind

How could we do so lightblind?

Produced by SJM-productions, 2006

 

SJM-productions, 2006: Fugitive

Fugitive
(written by Saskia Boree)

She's concealed between
Where nothing's as it seems
She try to forget his face
And try to forget his choked embrace

She's volatile in her carriage
Underneath her the fast wheels
She feels the dead shadows
Close upon her heels
One yellowed book in her hand
One bottle of magic sand
She should live
With her case, always fugitive

~The Fugitive~
'How did you find me?
Standing in front of you again
All things seems near, but
Couldn't be'

~The Claimaint~
'Why won't you ever be mine ?'

~The Fugitive~
' 'Cause your blood tastes like acid wine'

~The Claimaint~
'Is that all I doing for? '

~The Fugitive~
'You could better look into a mirror
Leave me alone now, I couldn't be yours
I only try to travel where my heart goes
You should learn to understand me
If you ever want me'

His embrace should her choke
While everything vanish into smoke
She's concealed in her ways of life
She won't be longer fugitive
No longer fugitive

Produced by SJM-productions, 2006

 

SJM-productions, 2006: Overwhelmed

Overwhelmed
(written by Saskia Boree)

If I kick you not back to reality
You should think that life's easy
Put away the indolence
Breakaway that heavy fence
I wouldn't be a second mother for you
I won't load of trouble too

CHORUS
Overwhelmed by weakness
When you blame someone else
Overwhelmed by indolence
When you're doing
It all by yourself

If I kick you not back on your feet
Should you fight and bleed
Put away all anger
Finally we're all a stranger
Make much dues and trouble too
But I can't be a mother to you
(chorus)

I know that you want
Always helping someone
But when do you start think
Of yourself first?
You can't blame someone else
Find first the problems by yourself
The dues that you made
Comes only from you
'Cause fnally you're the one
Who spend your money again
(chorus)

The words I've say
Has one reason at all
I care of you anyway
(chorus)

Overwhelmed by indolence
Breakaway that heavy fence

Produced by SJM-productions, 2006

 

SJM-productions, 2006: Living Empirical

Living Empirical

(written by Saskia Boree)

 

I try to find out

Why this words came out my mouth

What I said, was what I would be

Deep inside my choice's wrong

I think that I won't belong

To someone who live in a taled fairy

Yeah, hey

 

Who in the world are you to keep me

From all what I could be?

Who in the world are you

To grieve me?

I'm living empirical

 

I try to see it

Why this, confuse me a little bit

What I think, is what belongst to me

Deep inside my heart's wrong

I think that I can't furter on

With someone who only takes my energy

Yeah, hey

 

Who in the world are you to keep me

From my destiny?

Who in the world are you

To push me?

I'm living empirical

 

Unravel my sins

Could I ever end this war within?

Unravel how I really feel

Could I ever find out another wheel?

I wish that live could be easy...

And yeah, hey

 

Who in the world are you to keep me

From all reality?

Who in the world are you

To judge me ?

I'm living empirical

 

Living empirical

 

Produced by SJM-productions, 2006

 

SJM-productions, 2006: Tormented Souls

Tormented Souls

(written by Saskia Boree)

 

Phenomena are agony's

But finally we are who we want to be

We're all tormented souls

 

'Today I say what I want to say and

I should do what I always want to do

How different we also are

As human being we're equal

Some failed through inside disorders

Deviations in tainted material'

 

Loads through the inborn genes inside

We're all tell story's we'd rather hide

We're all a little faded and

Nobody could finally be the same

We're all tormented souls

 

'Today I remain myself to do weird things

That I actual never should do

How unique we all are

As human being we remain equal

Some arised through outside influences

Without changes in the tainted material'

 

Loads through the inborn suffer and fear

Agony don't change when we all disappear

We're all a little faded and

Nobody could finally be the same

We're all tormented souls

 

Phenomena are agony's

But finally we are who we want to be

Where will we are as everybody remains tormented?

We're all tormented souls...

 

Produced by SJM-productions, 2006

 

SJM-productions, 2006: The Seasons Change Away

The Seasons change away
(written by Saskia Boree)

The way they just gave
Cold breathe of the wind
Makes us so blind
The way they behave
Freezed drops of the rain
They just gives us pain
Flowers remain into the ground
Fishes became landlubbers
And the other way round

Look out your window
Listen to the screams of the wind
Tumbling branches, withered leaves
Beats all through our mind
But we should never know
What the past left behind

Take care of nature
It's our future
Don't make it dead

CHORUS
They try to behave, like we people do
We're on the border of madness too
April became October
November became May
All those beautiful seasons
Change away

Take care of nature
It's our future
Don't make it dead
Take care of nature
It's our future
We need all a little breath
(chorus)

The seasons change away

Produced by SJM-productions, 2006

 

SJM-productions, 2006: Black Butterflies

Black Butterflies
(written by Saskia Boree)

Walking on the border of sadness
Walking through mirrors of sin
Walking round all crazy truth
Try to find myself within
But all I see:
Hidden history

CHORUS
But you still know about
All my black butterflies
You still know things
What makes me affraid
Frighten thoughts inside
They won't out, and let me see
It all black or white
I wish that my thoughts become
All grey
But they are black, they're
Black Butterflies

Crawling on the border of madness
Crawling allthrough the sand
Crawling round, empty circles
Try to find myself again
But all I see:
Faded reality
(chorus)

No, I don't try to be perfect
Anymore
But I do always the best
I can (yeah I can)
' Cause that's finally
What I am

All those black butterflies
Makes it seem that I'm died
I don't give up, no I don't give it up
All my tries.....
(chorus)

Produced by SJM-productions, 2006

 

SJM-productions, 2006: One More Day Alive

One more Day Alive
(written by Saskia Boree)

Here you are, so lost again
Your mind's tumbling down and down
You ask yourself again
What did you learn of this
What did you earn
What you should miss
Well baby do you ever wanna hear the truth?
You listen, but you don't believe
That there's nothing wrong with you

CHORUS
You only want
One step away from your past
You only want
One step away from your cries
You only wanna
Take the things in own hands
You really wanna be somebody
And I understand
Yeah, you only want
One More Day Alive

Well you're sitting here, but far away
Your brains are black, falling back
You ask yourself again
Why did you wrong of this
Why you belong
What takes your bliss
Well baby do you ever wanna hear the truth?
You listen, but take things wrong
There's nothing wrong with you too
(chorus)

One step forward, one step back
One step white, one step black
Take one step from all your denies
It's not wrong if you need to cry
Try to be closer, and try one more day alive

Just be pride of yourself and learn from mistakes
Try to find your way, and do what your heart say
And you should one more day alive
One More Day Alive

Produced by SJM-productions, 2006

 

SJM-productions, 2006: Deceived Semblance

Deceived Semblance
(written by Saskia Boree)

We're living on edge
We're living into a mirror
Many of us lost their lives
Before they died
No one can tell them
Why they cried
Why they lived for
Is this the end?

Where's the expensive advice?
We feel like condemned thiefs
And do we hear, can we feel that
Semblance deceives
We're keep on turning circles in the sand
Is it all so hard to understand
That semblance deceives?

We're living on a edge
We're living on a precipice
Many of us lost their life
Before they bleed
And who can give them
What they need
Maybe some advice?
Is this really the end?

Hear them cry
Feel them fly
Do you feel their cold breath
Underneath your skin?
Do you feel their fear within?
Their feel like condemned thiefs
Nobody should believe
That semblance deceives

Keep on turn your circle in the sand
One day we should understand,
That semblance deceives....
Semblance deceives

Produced by SJM-productions, 2006

 

SJM-productions, 2006: No More Wars To Fight

No More Wars To Fight
(written by Saskia Boree)

How many changes should I give someone?
How many changes should I get?
Time's circle around, what are we?
There's no reflection
For what our lives ought be

Only white grained sand
Bright the world in our hands
No more blood in dark light
Hear all pain's feeding up today
Feel how pain's bleeding all away
Hear it, feel it
No more wars to fight

How many times should I learn?
How many times do I have?
Time's flee around, what are we?
The reflection's there, it's always there
This is what we should be
This is what we should earn

All gone with unnamed fears
All gone all ashamed tears
No more grief in black light
See all pain's feeding up today
Taste pain's bleeding all away
See it, taste it
No more wars te fight

Be responsible for our own life's
Keep each other in thoughts (without hurt)
Keep remember that semblance deceives
And that life's what we all believe

See how pain disappears
Feel how pain dried away all tears
No more pain into limelight
See it, feel it
No more wars to fight

Hear it, taste it
No more wars to fight

Produced by SJM-productions, 2006

 

SJM-productions, 2006: The Origin Within

The Origin Within
(written by Saskia Boree)

Feels like snowing within
Like everuthing's a sin
Feels like treason to me
What am I ought to be?
There's nothing more to lose
There's nothing more to win

CHORUS
Strong feelings feeds smart thoughts
When my eyes are close tight
Shape the origin within our hearts
What we be, is what we fight
To proof what's wrong and right
How to shape the origin within our hearts

One little grain of sand
One blank, opened hand
Tells story's to me
What I am to be
There's nothing more to say
I whipe my tales all away
(chorus)

Strong feelings feeds smart thoughts
How to shape the origin within our heart?

We feed, we bleed
To find the origin within
We cry, we die
To shape the origin within
(chorus)

Shape the origin within our hearts

Produced by SJM-productions, 2006

 

SJM-productions, 2006: In Spite Of All

In Spite Of All
(written by Saskia Boree)

Every little thing of you remembers me
How you did, you made me realize
How you did, what you ever ought to be
Living into future, Living into past
Telling tales about how you really was
All memories are inside,
Behind my eyes

CHORUS
Every hair, every breathe
Every muscle underneath
Your smell, your pain
Every step right through the rain
Keeps us together, keeps us strong
But in spite of all
To each other we can't belong

When I miss you, I remember it all
How you was, you let me know
How you did, how you grow
Living into future, living this day
They can never take the pain away
Feels like always lost between those walls
(chorus)

Everything's hazy, colored red and black
Sometimes I wish that time could turn back
In spite of all... in spite of all...
(chorus)

Produced by SJM-productions, 2006

In lovin' memmory of my brother

* 4 February 1982 + 7 March 1988

 

SJM-productions, 2006: Suffered Secretly

Suffered Secretly
(written by Saskia Boree)

I have no reason
To let all my feelings out
I have enough reasons
To let all my words in my mouth
I think it's time to say
How I really feel
It's time to say
What's really real?
And behind my will
Came I to a standstill

CHORUS
We could only became ourselves
So what's the point of hate and love?
I could finally became myself
Not play an other to safe someone
We're feeling all a little died alone
And I, and we
Suffered secretly enough

I have no reason
To let me command in what I do
I have enough reasons
To be myself, and live for myself too
I think it's time to believe
To feel, there's thunder inside
It's time to believe
That I couldn't longer hide
'Cause behind my will
Came I to this standstill
(chorus)

Behind my will
Came I to this standstill
I feel a little died alone
I feel that I'm struck
Between hate and love
So I, I suffered secretly enough
(chorus)

We, and I
Suffered secretly enough

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SJM-productions, 2006: Deathlike Hush

Deathlike Hush
(written by Saskia Boree)

The passion is dying
The children are crying
All light's turning off
While darks's coming down

The believe is closed
Pain's overdosed
Black light's prevailing
Evil's getting the crown

Everyone needs one warm heart to hold
So why's sun too hot, and wind too cold?
There's nothing else,
Just the embrace of this deathlike hush

And there's nothing else
Only the embrace of this
Deathlike hush

The pain couldn't heal
The power isn't real
Strong ones lost theirselves
While faith's dusting away

Breath should expired
The people all tired
Weak ones growing big
The evil let us astray

Everyone needs one warm heart to hold
So why's sun too hot, and wind too cold?
Everyone needs someone to hold hisself together
But who am I, to make it all better ?

And there's nothing else
Only the embrace of this
Deathlike hush

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SJM-productions, 2006: Silk Thread (Overdosed)

Silk Thread (Overdosed)
(written by Saskia Boree)

Today I'm running in a circle
And I'm stuck on a silk thread....
*
What in my life did I wrong to you?
What did I wrong, and why
Don't you see that you others also hurt
I understand your pain, but why
Should we need wounded through
Your pain too?
I'd never thought bad about you
No, you're not so bad (as they think)
The pain's all inside your head
You're only obsessed by all you do
You're the person who always said:
'Tear the shades off your head
And go further on too'

CHORUS
It couldn't be fair
Mind your own business and get a life
You shouldn't have to tell me
All what I should miss
I can't always share
I mind my problems much as I can
You shouldn't have to hell me
'Cause I get overdosed by this

The thread caught on me
Vulnerable and thin
But in the meantime it won't break
My life's stuck on this thread
On the edge of the fall
I'm caught, and I just wait and bleed
(chorus)

Soft, as I am, tug I all my stings back
My rose-buds colored red again, no longer black
Smothered by all this silk around me
No, I'm not a fool
Why may I not be the person
That I really meant to be?
*
Tomorrow, I'll run the same circle again
I should always caught on this....
...... Silk thread......

Produced by SJM-productions, 2006

 

SJM-productions, 2006: Immortal Or Something

Immortal or Something

(written by Saskia Boree)

 

I follow an empty way

While time past away

And maybe I write

My whole life and day

On this unfinishing chapter of my book

How long it should last

How long it should take

I am always awake

 

CHORUS

What's the meaning of my life?

They can't call me an angel all the time

I could be dying too

If I couldn't entirely survive

And I'm not

No I'm not

Immortal or something

 

I'm tumbling down the ages

While I leaf through the pages

Of my incomplete book

I'm standing still in the rain

Turning the same circle

And stay in vain

Feeling so caged, see what they took

(chorus)

 

I won't live longer with my sorrows

Like everyone wants to grow

I take the day, adore tomorrow

That's my way to go

I should be a sober person

Where should be the end of all exist?

(chorus)

 

And I'm not immortal or something

I'm not..... immortal

' Cause even I could fall.....

 

Produced by SJM-productions, 2006

 

SJM-productions, 2006: Tight Squeeze

Tight Squeeze 

(written by Saskia Boree)

 

Here she's standing all against the wall

Her hair so smooth and combed through

Her nail exquisite manicured

Her skin so soft and she looks so sure

There's only one thing about her masks

One thing she never should ask, it is

She really don't know what to do

And she's threatening to fall

Yeah, she needs some usefull help

 

CHORUS

Always open for something new

But others haven't much interests

Without any sense, not even a few

She can't get it off her chest

She's caught in a breeze

Give her a break before she smother

Between her tight squeeze

 

She's standing in front of a mirror

She's trying to face her truth

But only all the tears she shed

And all the fears inside her head

She really don't know what to do

She don't know where she lived for

And she need some usefull help

(chorus)

 

Her way is so far, her way is so long

She can't break, she can't escape

Her way is so long, her way is so wrong

She's caught in this breeze

She should smother

Between her tight squeeze.....

(chorus)

 

She's caught in this breeze

She should smother

Between her tight squeeze

 

Produced by SJM-productions, 2006

 

SJM-productions, 2006: Another Me

Another Me

(written by Saskia Boree)

 

I'm looking into the mirror

While I close the book I wrote

Where do I need to live for?

Searching for my guide

Search through all my notes

Try to find a way out of the night

I fall back again on my bed

With the shadows into my head

 

I try to face my ghosts

Try to find out who I am

But what do I finally see?

Another me

 

Looking all over this surface

Defiantly black holes

All over the place

Closing my book felt like betrayal

Where's my lost grace?

The time's evident right to fail

Falling back again on my bed

I'm better of dead... stone- dead

 

Try to face my demons outside

Where all my shadows coinside

I try to see

What I ought to be

I ought to be... another me

 

I'd try to take off this bandage

I'd try to heal my tourniquet

Deliver me from all my evil ghosts

Raise me from my bed!

 

And we should see

What I ought to be

Where I ought to be

Not there in my head

Out of this bed

We see

What I ought to be

Another me

 

Another me....

 

Produced by SJM-productions, 2006

 

SJM-productions, 2006: Relative Sepsis

Relative Sepsis

(written by Saskia Boree)

 

I remember the days

That you grow inside of me

And I remember the days

That I know what you should be

But the world didn't come to an agreement

Everything has their own rules and

Feels for me all the end

 

CHORUS

No matter we do

No matter how we live

I should get you through this

They can't say that you're an importune bliss

But I should better watch you

' Cause you're my relative,

Not my relative sepsis

 

I recall my old ways

That I choose for you

And I recall my old ways

That I thought that, that's what I need to do

But the world said to me, ' You did it all wrong'

everything has their own rules and

I feel that I here couldn't belong

(chorus)

 

Why should I marry someone

Why should I walk through this

All my children should be alive

No law could hold me back

' Cause, family stays our relative,

And not our relative sepsis

(chorus)

 

Your not my importune bliss

You stay my relative,

And not my relative sepsis

(eventueel chorus)

 

Produced by SJM-productions, 2006

 

SJM-productions, 2006: Deep Down Inside (So Much To Live For)

Deep Down Inside (So Much to Live For)

(written by Saskia Boree)

 

My page is blank

All the words I wrote

Colouring black or change away

My pen is so tired

And the characters I wrote

Left me alone, let me astray

 

There are so many borders I could cross

There's so much to discover and hide

There's so many time that I'd lost

And I face my truth, facing my mirror

So much to see, deep down inside

So much to be, and so much to live for

 

My movie is showed

All the reflections are seen

Black and white or grey

My life is fight

And the thunder disappears

Everything's changed, fall into new ways

 

I'm closer to myself now

I know now how to grow

Facing my truth, facing my mirror

So much to see, deep down inside

So much to be, and so much to live for

 

~ My Conscience~

Hear the horrifying screams

Nothing's what it seems

Your page is blank

Your pen is so tired

Your movie is showed

Your life is fight

But it felt not right!

Try to adore

There's so much to care for.....

 

Yeah I face my truth, facing my mirror

So much to see, deep down inside

So much I could be, so much to live for

So much to live for....

 

Produced by SJM-productions, 2006

 

SJM-productions, 2006: Grave Tales

Grave Tales

(written by Saskia Boree)

 

Where do I land here?

Where Am I inside?

This entourage feels so cold

Can I escape here?

What do they hide?

Why Am I here to hold?

I'm feeling old.....

 

It seems like I'm inside a mortuary

Is here where it all ends

Is this what I should be?

 

CHORUS

Telling a grave tale

Is so elusive

You can't escape of it

You never come out of this

Telling this story all around

Your mouth taped, both hands bound

Telling grave tales

 

Where do I appropriate?

Where Am I to found?

This entourage feels like sand

Could I escape, or is it too late?

Why Am I bound?

I don't understand

Where do I land?

 

It seems like I'm stuck inside this grave

Who could let me out? Who could help me?

I can't move, and I couldn't leave this space

I've lost my light, lost a lot

I can't see my light, no I couldn't see

(chorus)

 

I feel the presence of mortal beings around

But I couldn't move, I'm still bound

Smell the stench of putrefy

Into this new figure

Try to tell my dead story

But for now I'm from nothing sure

(chorus)

 

Telling grave tales.....

 

Produced by SJM-productions, 2006

 

SJM-productions, 2006: Face Your Trauma

Face Your Trauma

(written by Saskia Boree)

 

CHORUS

Everyone has a scary thing

Everyone has once frighten

Tear yourself apart

Discover your heart

And face your trauma

Face your trauma

 

I hate it to say this today

Ignoring her is the best way

They haven't all the right

To think that I always want to fight

In every situation

You ask everyone's attention

And you always interfere

No, I don't want to hear

So, face your trauma

(chorus)

 

One day you need to let me go

And deep inside you know

I need my life on my own

You'd better to leave me alone

I won't a life what everything miss

I won't simply a life like this

Take care, and face your trauma

(chorus)

 

I don't want this conversation

I need another situation

This is not the life that I want

So making it better is all what I should do

So I make a start, and I need to ignoring all you!!

And I should face my trauma

Just like you need to do too!!

(chorus)

 

Produced by SJM-productions, 2006

 

SJM-productions, 2006: The Vexation Of My Mind

The Vexation Of My Mind

(written by Saskia Boree)

 

I see, my door's openwide

With my changes by my side

And I try to walk it through

With all those opportunity's

Would I further, where's my own me?

But they contrared me all twice

 

I couldn't betray my own I

I couldn't leave her behind

I hope I could this world survive, and

I hope to survive this vexation of my mind....

 

I'm looking forward,

Through the prison of my cage

I try to find, and

I try to survive, this vexation of my mind....

 

They could try to protect me right

But I like to lead my own fight

That's what I really need to do

Walking around inside this mirror

Asking myself where to live for

While everything has a high price

 

I wouldn't mess it all up

We all need to find

I hope I could this world survive, and

I hope to survive this vexation of my mind....

 

Now I'm looking back

Falling back when I was five

I try to leave those years behind

And I try to survive, this

Vexation of my mind....

 

Floating away from this vexation of my mind....

 

Produced by SJM-productions, 2006

 

SJM-productions, 2006: Handfull Of Thoughts

Handfull Of Thoughts

(written by Saskia Boree)

 

Look to the life's we lead

Look to the wants that we 'need'

Is it all really nescessary?

It feels all a little scary

We are poor, we let us manipulate

We are evil, and we create hate

 

Try to face it, let's talk about

What keeps us so busy?

One handfull of thoughts

 

We talk it all against again

There's no disparity between men and women

And if we should tell what we really want

Couldn't we have it in our own hands

When do we believe, feelings are all true

We don't need another, and we could other things do

There are so much people, who taunt it all wrong

There are so much people where we couldn't count on

 

Try to face it, let's talk about

What keeps us so busy?

One handfull of thoughts

Try to face it, let's walk over

The things what couldn't really be

Try to face, one handfull of thoughts

 

I wish that I was a big talker

Easy to understand

I wish that I could let all my

Thoughts out

But some things tied me my mouth

And here it is:

One handfull of thoughts

 

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SJM-productions, 2006: End Of Reality

End of Reality

(written by Saskia Boree)

 

I pull my important conclusion

The life I lead was an elusion

I tried so hard to make something of it

But the life I'd lead scared me a little bit

I'd thought that I was what I really should be

And now I vacillate on my feet

The world's turning round my eyes while I bleed

Here it is, the end of reality

 

I float away

I couldn't longer stay

Nobody should really understand me

I wish that I could further on

To me, it feels all wrong

And here it is, the end of reality

 

Now.....

My hour-glass is running out in time

The world couldn't longer be mine

I leave the breath-taking ones

For what they should be

Here it is, here I stand

On the end of my reality

 

The end of all reality.....

 

Produced by SJM-productions, 2006

 

SJM-productions, 2006: Frozen Veins (Here Comes The Rain)

Frozen Veins (Here comes The Rain)

 

Your friends taunted you with me

And I'm not the person for you

I'm not the person who I want to be

I would be free, I've other things to do

I'm really sorry

 

CHORUS

Here comes the rain

Rushing all through your veins

I don't want to hurt you

But I don't know what to do

Stab into my brains

Break my frozen veins

 

My family taunted me with you

While I pull the conclusion for me

You're not the person for me too

I am free now, that's what I be

I'm really sorry

(chorus)

 

Finally I told you how I really feel

This story, and bad reality

It isn't for me no longer real

I have to do other things, I would be free

I'm really sorry

 

Let it come that hot rain

Melting away my frozen veins

There's nothing, nothing I could do

I couldn't say other to you

And I wish that this situation was different....

(chorus)

 

Break my frozen veins

I wouldn't drown in all those rain

Yeah, break my frozen veins

Break my frozen veins!

 

Produced by SJM-productions, 2006

 

SJM-productions, 2006: Complete Control

Complete Control

(written by Saskia Boree)

 

Here we stand, both so insane

You said to me,

That I fill you with my pain

But you can't make me wise

That you never hurt me so much

The truth is,

You started it all up inside

Now you only repudiate all my pride

 

Now, you better fill up all the holes

Before we lose our complete control

 

Here we are, both withered mad

I said to you,

That you make it all yourself so sad

But you can't make me wise

That all you do isn't infectious

The truth is,

You started it all up between

You only repudiate all what we'ved seen

 

You better fill up this holes

' Cause we're losing our complete control

 

What happened to us?

What's left of us?

In former years we had complete control

It feels to me so contagious

How did we get struck inside this hole?

Where's all this losed complete control?

 

It's better to fill up those holes

It's better to have complete control

 

We're losing our complete control

We're losing our complete control

We're so outta control.....

 

Produced by SJM-productions, 2006